Do you? I'm pretty sure everyone doesn't because they don't fucking care.
My life haven't got any better since. I've been into A LOT OF SHITS.
SHIT I FUCKING TELL YOU. A FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.
Ain't that happy a happy intro , doesn't it? Well I hope you're wrong because it fucking doesn't.
LIFE haven't got any better since.
Yeah I got money , house stuff and shit whatever , but fuck , why don't you put your feet into my shoes and then tell me how fucking fun it is.
Its FUCKING NOT.
Did you know how I feel for a couple of years now? Did you know? Do you know how much I'm trying to FUCKING FIX MYSELF UP?
No , you don't fucking know. You don't really fucking know.
Everyday , I wish , I pray that someday I will become a fucking better person. A whole fucking better person.
But why? Yeah , why don't you fucking tell me.
It's simple , it's for everyone. What ? You don't understand? Are you fucking dumb?
It's straight and simple , it's for everyone.
IT'S FOR EVERYONE SO THAT ANYONE OR EVERYONE THAT AROUND ME CAN HAVE A GOOD SIDE OF ME . THEY DON'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH ANOTHER ASSHOLE.
But no, things doesn't fucking goes as what I though.
People are cruel , they all are fucking cruel.
I've been stabbed.
I've been used.
I've seen as a fucking joke.
They don't fucking appreciated what you've done. THEY JUST FUCKING LEAVE YOU IN THE END.
LEAVE I FUCKING TELL YOU. LEAVE.
THEY JUST LEFT ME. WITHOUT A SINGLE WORD . WITHOUT A FUCKING REASON.
Some of them try as if they care about me. As if THEY WANT TO BE FRIEND WITH ME.
No , they don't. They fucking don't. You think I'm blind? You really think I'm fucking blind?
I've both eyes and fucking experiences. People have done a lot to me. A LOT.
I can't be easily fooled now. I've learnt that..
People are temporary , they will never stick to me until the end.
NO MATTER WHAT I DID.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I TRIED.
NO MATTER HOW MUCH I FUCKING SACRIFICED.
MONEY , TIME , ENERGY , ALL WASTED TO THOSE SYAITAN.
SYAITAN WITH HUMAN FACE.
FUCK ALL OF YOU. FUCK YOU. JUST FUCK YOU.
THANKS A LOT OF USING ME.
THANKS FUCKING A LOT FOR USING ME UNTIL YOU MANAGE TO STAND UP ON YOUR OWN FUCKING FEET.
UNTIL YOU FIND SOMEONE BETTER.
UNTIL YOU CAN LIVE WITH YOUR OWN FUCKING LIFE AGAIN.
YOU JUST LEFT ME.
LEFT ME WITHOUT TELL ME WHAT'S WRONG.
LEFT ME FOR NO FUCKING REASON.
FUCK YOU.
I SAID IT AGAIN , FUCK YOU , FUCK THE LOTS OF YOU.
Don't ever ask me why I'm cold to you. Don't ever ask me why.
Ever though on asking yourself? I bet you don't because you're too fucking busy with your fucking life doesn't it?
Oh , look at you , happy without me. GO AHEAD . GO FUCKING AHEAD.
I'VE DONE TONS OF SHIT SO THAT WE CAN BE CLOSER.
BUT NO , YOU'RE TOO DUMB TO FUCKING REALIZE IT DON'T YOU?
You sick fucking cunt.
"Oh , he's a nice guy , let take the advantages to use his money on me"
I'm pretty fucking sure that this is what you though of me when you fucking meet me.
You know that I'm willing to use my money on you , so you used me.
Great fucking job. You're lucky because I was dumb and naive at that time.
YES.
I WAS FUCKING DUMB AND NAIVE. I'M LIKE THE DUMBEST PERSON EVER.
I'M A FUCKING LOOSER.
AND YOU GUYS FUCKING USED ME. YOU SAW MY WEAKNESSES , AND YOU TOOK THE ADVANTAGES . FUCK YOU.
THANKS TO ALL OF YOU , FROM NOW ON , I HAVE FUCKING TRUST ISSUE.
A REAL FUCKING TRUST ISSUE.
I DON'T TRUST ANYONE , WHETHER THEY ARE SOMEONE THAT IS NEW , OR SOMEONE THAT I ALREADY KNEW.
I WILL NEVER TRUST THEM. I WILL NEVER SEE THEM AS PERMANENT.
EVERYTHING IS TEMPORARY. THEY WON'T LAST LONG. ANYTIME FROM NOW , ONE OF THEM WILL DO THE SAME LIKE THE OTHERS.
THEY FUCKING WILL.
I've no support.
I built my own road.
When things broke , I fixed it by myself
I don't depend myself on another person like I used to.
Not anymore.
And I will never will.
I'll make my own way.
I'll make my own trophy.
I'll push myself to my own victory.
And once I reach there ,
I will forget everyone.
Everyone.
Even the closest one.
I'll be cold as fuck.
I've been into a lot of pain.
I've been hurt so much.
I don't trust people anymore.
I will and try to get my revenge.
I fucking will.
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